Terry/Dez is a well-documented dangerous queerphobe

Content Warning: Heavy use of slurs, racism, transphobia, queerphobia, suicide mention, anti-semitism, fatphobia, mentions of child abuse and pornography, mentions of doxxing

This website was created to raise awareness and also serve as an exstensive archive of Terry/Dez's history of deception that mostly concerns the safety of queer, trans- or GNC people. This can also involve anyone else that may have given her private information. I hope that this document can be used to prevent any further cruelty, deceit, or explotation of trust in the future.

It's important to note that Terry/Dez has been exposed many times over many accounts for the same behaviors in the past ranging back as far as 2020. Many of these images will be sourced from them. This archive contains mostly all of the same contents. Not all are working links. The images posted are their original resolutions so there is inconsistencies in formatting. It's recommended to view links but not necessary.

It is strongly recommended to not view this document if you are sensitive to the topics shown above. Certain contents will be censored to protect the identities of those who gave testimonials. It is recommended to not interact with her at all.

Establishing context: Terry/Dez is a self-hating detransitoner who was also known by Simon/Charlotte/Katie. According to testimonials given by previous friends and acquaintances, she was known to have a pattern of constantly shifting identities which includes flipping between ideologies when it could benefit her. She previously participated in many LGBTQ+ and disabled communities and events. She was a mod for:

  • Homestuck-Lesbians-Week
  • AccessibleHomestuckFanworks
  • And a participant of the "Venture Bros Pride Zine" with an entry depicting two gay trans man characters at a PRIDE parade.

    Terry/Dez valued inclusitivity in her art enough to draw Jane Crocker from Homestuck with cerebral palsy (???), Aradia Medigo & Jade Harley likely intending to be radically "unconventionally" attractive and nonwhite, and even pushed into some (opinion) slightly racist caricature territory. I mean, look at Roxy... Yes, Terry/Dez is white.

    Whether her intentions were from a place of genuine contribution or rather for tumblr-adjacent fandom attention at the time, or even just a satrical mockery of the communities she was a part of (opinion) it is without a doubt that the amount of time and dedication for anyone to uphold this "SJW" persona and then completely turn against it, hurt as many people that have known her for years in the process, ~then reveal that she was "bad" the whole time~ (assuming she didn't make that part up for a larger reaction all along) and evolve into someone who draws hyper-realistic pornography of little kids, the OCs of known pedophiles, and tried to lie about being uncomfortable with that (Image is a web breaking down various lies and contradictions. There is an image of aforementioned child OC that is censored. It is connected to a passage of her describing why she enjoys life-like "loli" art and what intricate details of children's bodies are lost when drawn in a cartoon style. It is connected to another passage of her insisting she was "uncomfortable" by realistic renders.) is otherworldy loser basement-dweller shit to do. Is there even a life outside of this or is it all rendered into just being an terminally online femcel lol? Whether or not you see art of fictional underage characters as CP it is indisputable that this is intended to be pornography OF real prepubescent, child bodies.

    Terry/Dez's circle mostly consisted of other student animators and cartoonists prior to this. It was described that her personality majorly shifted in 2020 and she began to act out increasingly out of character by posting "offensive edgy" humor and sharing screencaps that suggested she was participating on /co/. She would later drop out of art school after the reveal below. This is relevant in the next section.

    Suicide-baiting, deadnaming, and participating in the doxxing of "J", betraying a community

    A brief screen recording of the beginning of this conversation can be found here

    Dez: I’m sorry but I don’t see how my comments were cissexist? I just find penises gross and unattractive, whether theyre attached to a cis man or not.

    I dont get how its cissexist because i didnt assume anyone was cis? I didnt make fun of cis men i made fun of penises which i think are gross.

    And not all men have penises and some trans women/amab nbs don’t have penises either

    J: It’s more so blanket statements like that that make people uncomfortable even if you didn’t have trans people in mind

    even if you personally find penises gross it’s kind of Ehh to joke about especially since there are some transfem people in chat

    Dez: Oh.

    Well they can go 41% about it.

    J: What?

    Dez, why would you make a joke like that.

    While finding genitalia gross is completely fine it becomes derogatory in this context. This was brought up in DM’s between Terry/Dez and "J" a long-term friend of 5 years, cautioning against alienating the transfem people they shared a group chat with. J is also trans himself.

    “41%” in this context is the false “average trans suicide attempt rate” / and alternatively the false “percentage of trans women in prison that are convicted sex offenders”

    This “joke” is commonly said in TERF communities to marginalize trans people and vilify transfem people.



    J: Dez, we’ve been friends for years, what would even motivate you to make a comment so horrible? What the hell is going on with you?

    Dez: I’ve been transphobic the whole time (DEADNAME)*

    J: I’m extremely disappointed in you Dez. I had nothing but good things to say to you and I really don’t know why you would change, especially since we’ve known each other for a long time. You’re going to hurt a lot of people who looked up to you. we all loved you a lot and i have no idea why you’d suddenly turn around on years of friendship to be like this but hey, I can’t control your life. If you want to be transphobic, fine. But I don’t think anyone is going to want to associate with you anymore especially not in this friend circle.

    Dez: I understand that. Hope you can find someone else to draw your homophobic fujobait porn OCs this christmas.

    *It was impossible that Dez could have known about "J's" deadname other than a recent Kiwifarms thread that leaked his information. Dez had to at the least view his thread. It's possible that Dez was contributing to "J's" gangstalking situation judging similar vocabulary of insults used here.


    “T” was informed of the previous interaction and confronted Terry/Dez.

    T: hey “J” just showed me what you said, and before i block you, i need to know: why? Why were you friends with us for so long and made trans friendly content in the past and then you suddenly turn like this? what was the point??? what the fuck were you gaining from being friends with people you hate? what the FUCK?

    Dez proceeds to send a video.

    Content of the video:

    “Phase 1: being someone questioning if they're a woman”

    “Phase 2: they say they are a woman, and it cuts to a loud gunshot and a drawing of someone having shot themselves on a table”

    Dez: I was transphobic long before 4chan

    I mean transphobia isn't even real

    T: don’t fucking tell me to calm down!!! what the fuck was the point of any of this?? WHY WERE YOU EVEN OUR FRIEND? What did you get out of any of this???

    Dez would later entirely dedicate her "rubacava" blog to reposting TERF and other transphobic photos.

    The text reads as follows

    “Kids with no personality: *sees a trend that literally everyone on social media is participating in*

    Kids with no personality: this is gay :) like me :) i’m gay :)”

    “Though for everyone who may check this blog yes i hate trannies (Wojak of a trans person hanging)"

    There's more examples of this but I don't think it needs more elaboration. Dez established herself in a community and befriended people for years to later contribute to their harassment directly to people that want these people dead.

    Testimonials

    "I really hope you get help because it's seriously troubling to think you could actively pretend to support and befriend trans people while secretly joking about their suicide rates and deadnaming them. The people in our friend groups cared about you and wanted to see you succeed and you took advantage of that. And for what reason? Because it was funny?

    One day your blatant disregard for human life will catch up with you, and honestly, if you don't put the work in to improve yourself and stop involving yourself in TERF racist bullshit, I won't feel bad. I hope you make the right choice even if it isn't the easy one."

    These replies are on Dez's original call out.

    "If any of y'all are into adult swim shows or adult cartoons in general make sure she stays out of your servers/gc/block her from your blogs and warn others. Because my first encounter with her was in the ATHF tag and considering how many younger teens are in the fandom for that show right now I'm really worried she might make an attempt to indoctrinate them"

    "I know right like its insane that she would fake being friends with someone and then be like actually a transphobe, it's vile"

    "SERIOUSLY LIKE??? Faking an entire personality for what??? Really just like fucked up"

    "WHAT. THE. ACTUAL. FUCK. Why was I even friends with her?? What the fuck is wrong with her?"

    • “Hey! I just wanted to DM about Tbrainrot. I’m so sorry y’all are having to deal with that person. While I’m not in the proship phere it’s really important you watch for her because she is SEVERELY dangerous and has suicide baited me, and my other trans friends numerous times as well.

    I can confirm because I literally have screencaps of when she deadnamed me directly to my face and said, ‘I’ve been transphobic the whole time’ when I told her to stop being cissexist.

    I can provide proof because it’s terrifying to see her try and act like this never happened. Definitely avoid if you can.

    You absolutely don’t have to be the one to spread the word, but I’m hoping this somehow gets around to the spheres she’s in. Before becoming proship she made her entire blog a TERF blog and called herself a ‘transmisogyny enthusiast’ while posting trans suicide posts for months until recently. Again this sounds insane so I can give proof if need be, but I really think she’s a legit danger especially with her backtracking. You don’t have to respond or anything, but just seeing this person try and act like all the harm she’s done isn’t real is scary and I don’t want other trans people to fall for it.

    Thank you so much for your time.”

    “Even in our old server she pretended for months but kept posting transphobic memes, and her snapping point was me saying, ‘please stop’ and she called me and my friends every slur in the book admitting to being hateful this whole time. We were all genuinely rooting for her and had no ill will too, that’s all it took for her to snap. I hope y’all can recover because it’s still really sad for me to this day and this happened in like late 2020 and she’s been going strong with being a “proud TERF” until I guess she got enough popularity where it didn’t benefit her anymore. Just truly evil.

    Her favorite insult to call me was a “homophobic fujoshit” for being a trans man who draws gay art while calling all trans people pedophiles on Kiwifarms (where she also got my deadname). Just for a few months later to call herself a fujoshi and unsurprisingly a pedophile. It sounds so ridiculous but sadly I can vouch."

    “(Pro-Tip:) Don’t let the trans positivity dissuade you that she’s a self loathing detrans who takes it out on her open trans friends… she “used” to be very trans friendly with her art which is why we were friends with her for years. Or so we thought. Because, as you can tell, she routinely only draws for Fandom Attention and would do a bunch of LGBT positive fanart for reblogs and when that went well ran out she went seeking validation from TERFs and then from proship fandoms. Evidently she wants to eat her cake and eat it too by reaping attention from 4chan nazis and LGBT fandom spaces. Sorry, now I’m just ranting but you can see why it’s such a big deal to me. Something just happened along the way. All I want are zero trans artists to have to face the anxiety and humiliation of befriending someone who lies directly to someone’s face about supporting them. The fact she infiltrated fandom spaces intentionally with lots of trans people in it shows she’s a dangerous sadist who gets off to lying compulsively. ”
    “And the thing is: Before this happened she did try and act coy. She was being increasingly and intentionally cissexist with her language until this point. But when I saw through her bullshit that’s when she snapped, and I’m fearful she could do the same to y’all at any moment. Like she tried to defend Female Bone Anatomy and stuff (and follows multiple Hitler artist accounts, interesting.) and also did try to claim Karen was a slur once. I have no proof but there was a lot of really odd Radfem behavior beginning of Summer of 2020, and I wish I could tell you what but it was a very gradual descent with the memes to basically full blown trans suicide references on a daily basis. She did this for 2 years and stalked all my friends relentlessly and again, tried to leak my deadname on hate forums, many months after the incident happened, all because of this shit. She kept on getting booted off the face of the Earth when she posted fanart pre-Tbrainrot, so obviously this Terry persona was just her way to keep collecting her desperate need for fandom validations to make up for her complete lack of personality or originality. (She admitted to me herself in the past she has no original ideas or style LOL) ... but that's just my opinion."

    It is strongly recommended that if you are considered to have a sort of "vulnerability" (LGTBQ, C/SA victim...) to avoid Dez. Clearly she is a dangerous person to share any information with. This is not the first time Dez has done this and will likely not be the last. She has exhibited little remorse or care in any relationship she makes and will use any sort of lie to avoid accountability. It's impossible to tell what is genuine about her other than Dez being 17/18 in 2020 and in art school when the initial harassment and personality shift happened and is 20/21 now in 2023 still identifying as "transphobic" only after she was exposed and a "pedophile" ironically. She was also exposed for faking her age last year in an earlier call out. Just block on sight. Don't try to interact at all.